Im not new to this place and I dont think I will leave this place for a while. I dont really know the purpose with this my diary but perhaps the purpose is not to have one. Acctually I first started out a diary on Ef but since well I spend most of my time on CND so this place seemed to be the right place for me. I think its hard to write a diary in a language I dont handle like my first language and of that reason I might also use this of the same reason as i use the diary over at EF. To learn english a bit better. Since i do write a lot in my first language I get a bit annoyed when the language it self stops me from expressing the things i want to say but I notice my self it gets better. When writing in chat and just chatting with friends I dont care much as long they understand, but when its here in this form public for other ppl to read I do care. Through my education i know what impact a not correct language has on readers either they want to admit it or not. Ohh well not all, some ppl have made them self aware of their own wiew of how ppl express them self and the effect it has on their opinion of the person. Sometime its not even enough to understand the reasons behind the feeling a "broken language" brings to stay unaffected by them but its said to help being aware. I notice this my self when i read texts wich are very bad misspelled or use a bad grammar (when reading Swedish) I get opinion of the person, its a feeling this person might not be to good with things in school even not that smart. Theese feelings is scientificly proved (compares to foreign accent here wich in many ways are similar) to be normal and is also a way to force theese individuals towards a learning. The good part of this is if u make ur self aware of ur own wiew u can hmm how to say it, think of other reasons why the person is expressing in the way he/she does and u dont need to take the step where u aware or unaware make the decision of this person as stupid or lazy. Instead u can see to the other sides of what the person. Reason i write this is mainly cause I see so many who doesnt reflect over this when they judge what a person has written in forums. Many times the persons doesnt have the english as their first language or they might have a reading writing problem wich is very common. I havent had the problem my self but when I see clumsy posts I try to approach them this way. its not always I manage cause well Im only human and no better than anyone else, but a try has to count as something. If ppl read this I just want them to have this in mind when reading posts all over and not turning this forum into a place seing everything in black and white. Most important is perhaps how we see the person behind the post and not judging people on a quick glimpse of their communication system. Ohh well this is a nice start of my diary hehe I get so serius from time to time but I hope its for a reason. If u read it at least think about how u handle this matter...

Today Im not as dull as I where last time . Instead Im very happy. many good things has happend to me this last and I can feel relaxed and happy. The first good thing this week was a very surprising pm from MS9, telling me I had won a iPod 30. Hmm very surprised cause I was certain I had read someone else had won it but it turned out it was a small misstake when the winning number was calculated. First the winner was Lodi but after the correction it was me. I tried to put my self in Lodis position and understand it must feel crap for him, cause well he thought he won it but instead it turned out it wasnt so. I really hope happynes comes his way in some other form to make things balanced once again. The next good thing happend just a few minutes ago. As a little background I can tell I have been totally stressed to pieces for a few weeks now, with one essay, one new job and one class to attend at school. Now is the essay done. its very comforting to have that one behind my self and I can now once again concentrate on my new work (extra cash) and PE. I do have plans together with a friend to start up some events all over the world of PE and that will sure be intresting. The summer will tell. Soon Im heading to my work and well it still feels kinda nerveus but i get better at it so perhaps I schould try to relax some now. Im sry I dont write much about CND and PE here but it will come when a larger part of my rl time connects to to the server... Wish u all happy lives and luck